Yes I feel alone at times. Just because I smile it doesn’t always mean I am happy. It is all just a cover up. The pain still shows on the outside as well as on the inside too. I know you can’t see it because I smell good, dress good, look good, but beyond all of that physical attributes and appearances, I still want someone by my side reminding me that all will be okay. Wouldn’t you want that too?
Now I do not know about you, but this year has taught me a lot! It has given me wisdom and strength. Yes I have had seasons where I felt weak, but the Lord made strong through it all. With the help of the Lord, I was able to make decisions that benefited my well-being and the actions I will take to fulfill a successful future; the people I choose to be around, those who will help me to reach my potential and help to fulfill my visions.
For some of you right now, you may be facing a seasonal attack; it might even be a ‘silent season’ where God isn’t speaking. Ladies, I have been there, and recently it feels like I am at that stage now. It can be painful when we don’t hear God speak, but I remember a friend telling me that when doing exams, the invigilator is always quiet during the test. I have to keep reminding myself that though I may be in a quiet season, it does not exempt God from speaking to me. This is something that I had to train my mind to keep doing, because if I didn’t, the enemy would have kept deceiving me.
Remember ladies, there are times where you will become impatient about something that you really want, and the enemy will use your impatience to attack God. The enemy will keep whispering in your ear: “Where is your God now?” “You might as well give up on prayer because God ain’t listening!” Does these questions ring any bells at all? For me, they personally do. I was so spiritually weak and used to assume God did not care at all for me, until I met some amazing sisters this year that helped me to position and change my mindset for the better. Step by step I am getting there with the help of the Holy Spirit.
Your seasonal attacks should prepare you for what God has in store. Seasonal attacks are not permanent, they are temporary. Remember ladies that delay is NOT DENIAL! Just because you received a “NO”, doesn’t mean it will stay as a permanent no. Your mind has to be transformed by the Word of God. Remember that what ever door God closes, no man can open. Every single door that you thought was for you and God has closed it, you ought to give Him the highest praise, because I tell you, He knows what you can handle ladies!
Don’t assume that God is not listening to your prayers because your request was not answered at the time you wanted it. Instead thank Him for there is power in a closed door! Every seasonal attack is meant to push your character to become better and test your weaknesses. You must learn from every challenge you face because through them, your weaknesses eventually turn into strengths. If everything was easy in your life without struggle, how can you help someone who is currently going through problems? In my previous blog posts I stressed on the fact that I find it very hard relating to people who have not gone through anything, particularly without struggling.
For those who know me, I really found it hard securing a job after my degree, but thank God I have a job. People around me would always remind me that I have a job and that I should be grateful, but do they really know the pain I went through behind closed doors? The struggle of today is strengthening our tomorrow if you allow it to. In fact your seasonal attacks are working on behalf of your favor. Every trial, every tear, every test, even when you feel lonely and no-one is around is the OPPORTUNITY for you to draw closer to Him.
I am going to be real, there are times where I receive so many Whats-app messages and all I want to do is be with God, then when no-one sends me any message on Whats-app I get offended LOL! Can I be real here? Like honestly, it is not always easy because I don’t want to put God on the tip of my to do list; He must come first, and everything else shall follow. Recently, I have been drawing closer to the Lord and He has revealed a few things to me which I am really ecstatic about! 2016 is going to be a great year for you and I!
Just like how the weather changes is how our situations change, but guess what? GOD NEVER CHANGES! That is something to be happy about! When I sense my loved ones are too busy for me, I know there is someone who will never get tired of me, who will wipe my tears when I feel lonely, who will provide for all my needs when fear tries to act, who will keep me consistent in prayer, who will protect my family from harm. This is a God who remains the same through all of our seasonal attacks, and He deserves ALL THE GLORY AND PRAISE!
One of my beautiful sisters keeps reminding me that “If you don’t understand my pain you will never understand my pain”. Sometimes before we speak, we must THINK! Please do not underestimate the pain I went through in my past because you do not know any of the things I had to fight to get where I am today. I find it very funny when people assume you had an easy life without no struggle. You don’t need to tell people your business, but when you sense someone is trying to criticize your happiness, just ask them “Do you know how much it costed me to get this far?”.
If only some of your critics knew the background you came from, certain words won’t ever come out of their mouths, let alone their thoughts. I honestly do not have time to entertain a certain amount of pressure or negative vibes from people. As Women of Worth, we must know who we are in the Lord and know that all things will work out for our good! Our worth is NOT in our seasonal attacks but by the words of our testimony! You and I have a testimony! Whether big or small, it still glorifies our Father.
Sisters, if you are currently going through a seasonal attack, whether it be:
- Friendship attacks
- Relationship attacks
- Financial attacks
- Family attacks
- Spiritual attacks
- Emotional attacks
- Psychological attacks
- Mental attacks (Depression and Stress)
- Psychical attacks
- Health attacks
- Death attacks
PLEASE SPEAK UP! Do not allow these attacks to get the best of you! Sometimes sharing your problems with people may not heal the pain at that instance, but it will surely lift up a burden from your shoulder. Personally, I find it hard at times opening up to people, but instead what I do is pray before I speak, because sadly not everyone will support you when you are down. You really have to know the right people you can open up to. This takes WISDOM AND SPIRITUAL DISCERNMENT. These both can come through dreams and visions if you ask for them.
So my dear sisters in the Lord, please do not keep things to yourself. Speak to God and those He has placed in your life. Bare in mind that not everyone in your life will be for you, but the good thing to know is that He will grant you peace of mind on who to talk to. How, through your Spirit. When you speak to someone, you shouldn’t have second thoughts if you are controlled by the Spirit. However if you are talking from a feeling-based perspective, it can lead to regret and resentment. Remember you have to be aware when Satan tries to attack you; this is through PUTTING ON THE FULL ARMOR OF GOD: (Ephesians 6:10-18) and to CREATE A CIRCLE OF CHRISTIAN SUPPORT! (2 Timothy 1:8-9).
Some are currently facing mood swings; happy one day, anger another day. This is not what God wants. He always wants us to be happy even when things don’t look right. Remember that your seasonal attacks are working for your good (Romans 8:28). Your pain serves a purpose so don’t ever doubt it! Do not settle for less either; yes your pain will work out for your good, but it does not mean you should compromise who you are just to fit in. Do not make a permanent decision on a temporary situation. Even when you are upset, do not let your anger sleep with you because it will deceive (Ephesians 4:26-27). In all things remember change starts from your mind, so be transformed through His Word (Romans 12:2) and meditate on it day and night (Joshua 1:8).
IT IS TIME TO BUILD ON OUR SPIRITUAL WARFARE! LET US SET A STRONG FOUNDATION FOR 2016!